(k)erimenopause

One broad's reluctant journey to the dark side of womanhood.

Time to Dump the Mental Garbage January 24, 2015

Filed under: Uncategorized — kerimenopause @ 2:53 pm

According to that highly reliable source – Wikipedia – The Miller Analogies Test (MAT) is a standardized test used primarily for graduate school admissions in the USA. The test aims to measure an individual’s logical and analytical reasoning through the use of partial analogies. It can look something like this:

CLUMSY : BOTCH

A. WICKED : INSINUATE
B. STRICT : PAMPER
C. WILLFUL : HEED
D. CLEVER : ERADICATE
E. LAZY : SHIRK

FUGITIVE : FLEE

A. PARASITE : FOSTER
B. BRAGGART : BOAST
C. SAGE : STIFLE
D. BYSTANDER : PROCURE
E. FIREBRAND : QUIBBLE

You read it: Clumsy is to botch, like __________ is to ______________. Pick the best answer.

The other day I had a thought about things that bog me down. My MAT would look like this:

GUILT: MENTAL WEIGHT

A.  BIG GUT: LOW SELF-ESTEEM

B.  FAT THIGHS: FAILURE

C.  EXTRA POUNDS: ACCEPTANCE

D.  CHIPS: WIDE ASS

Although all of the above are true for me, ‘D’ is the proper answer for this quiz. Let me explain: Guilt weighs you down mentally to the point of incapacitation. Eat enough chips and your wide ass ain’t goin’ no where.

How many of us let the mental weight of guilt keep you from really succeeding on weight loss mission? How many of us have gym memberships we never use? How many of us have protein shakes in the cupboard we never open? How many of us have a weigh-loss pharmacy, only to have started/stopped each but never finished any? OK. Maybe none of you. But for me, again, all of the above.

After really thinking about the guilt issue and the connection it has to my repeated failure in my lifetime quest for thinner thighs, I realized that life is too short to feel guilty about what I’m NOT doing and start celebrating what I AM doing.  Love this quote:

Banquet-for-your-mind-140921

My mind is eating from a landfill of mental garbage! So…. this week, I decided to throw out some trash.

For the past two years I have been a member of Fitness 19. I got a screaming deal when I signed up… $12 a month! Well, once I did the math, not such a great deal. I’ve been no more than 5 times. That is about $60 a session. For me that isn’t the worst of the problem, however. A day has not gone by in the past two years that I have not beat myself up for not going there to work out. I’ve made elaborate plans. I bought nice work out clothes. Still, something just kept me away over and over. The result: nagging guilt and the belief that I suck.

A couple of days ago, I went to Fitness 19. I didn’t work out. I cancelled my membership. And, it felt amazing! My contract doesn’t run out until April 15. Which means, if I WANTED to, I could work out any time in the next three months completely guilt free of not taking advantage of what I’m paying for. I’ll probably end up there every day! When I walked out of the gym after my cancellation, I felt the lightest I ever have leaving there.

I signed up for a weight-loss program in December – promising amazing results.  True to form, I let this and that get in the way.  Well, that, and I realized I can’t eat a chicken breast and a leaf of lettuce every day.  It included all sorts of cremes, and drops, and shakes, and some kind of supposedly revolutionary fat zapper.  In thirty days, I lost 6 pounds. I can’t bring myself to tell you how much I spent on it.  On top of the program itself, I was required to drive about 30 miles one way twice a week.  If you aren’t from the Seattle area then you probably don’t think that is much.  From my home to the East side:  2 hours in brutal traffic.  If I was five minutes late, I lost my spot.  Yesterday, I called them and said I’ll use up the stuff but I’m pretty sure I could lose six pounds in a month without the stress of driving and the guilt of not doing it perfectly.

That decision inspired me to look at other areas that were weighing me down. I got home pulled out every weigh-loss regimen in my cupboards and drawers. Then I wrote down what each was for and how to use it. I devised a daily schedule to use them all up (after I made sure none of them would be a problem if used together). When they are gone, they are gone. Will I be thinner? Who knows but I won’t be weighed down by the constant dread of something else I didn’t finish.

My next step was to gather all the journals and workbooks and guides – I have a lot of them! I’ve got them all organized and I’m going to work through every last one of them so I can ditch them once and for all.

Will I be at a reasonable (to me, not you) weight when I’m done with all of this? Who knows? I certainly won’t be any worse than I am right now. And, I will surely be mentally lighter which may just be all I need to get physically lighter.  If you learn anything from this, I hope it is to empty your garbage, let go of the guilt that is weighing you down, and accept the fact that eating less and moving more is really the only solution.

guilt

        And, please, in the spirit of the most over-sung song of this

        century…

let it go, let it go, let it go!

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One Response to “Time to Dump the Mental Garbage”

  1. M. Says:

    I have an unopened bottle of protein shake mix and two unopened bottles of supplements in my cupboard. I sure relate to you.


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